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Showing posts with label New Hampshire. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Hampshire. Show all posts
Sunday, July 29, 2018
Wednesday, July 4, 2018
Green Forests
I returned to New Hampshire
a couple of weeks ago for a week-long visit. It was rainy at first, and then cold, humid, bright, and sunny. I was happy to hear thunder, watch many sunsets, and feel the humidity. I caught up with friends and family, traditions and memories, and enjoyed a really restful time.
I've heard of being
homesick for two places at once, and I've felt that this year. In California
this spring and early summer, I missed the green landscape, humidity, summer
warmth and unspoiled emptiness of New Hampshire. While experiencing New
Hampshire's summer rain and chill, I missed the predictability and warmth and
the mountains and landscape of California.
After the first couple of
days back east, I noticed the news that the poet Donald Hall who lived about 20
miles away, had passed away. I first learned about him while studying in
Scotland and recalled that I was excited to learn from so far away that he had
been a U.S. poet laureate, wrote with the great poets of the 20th century, and
happened to live in New Hampshire.
After reading his
long obituary filled with his poetry and how he
made a happy home and life in NH, I thought then and in the coming days on the
quiet roads and forest paths of how Hall lived and wrote and died in a
beautiful place that once again, I was happy to have roots in.
From the essay, Why We Live Here by Donald Hall about his home in
Wilmot, New Hampshire
Late spring and early summer, the whip-poor-will wakes us at
four-thirty. Gray light starts over the hills; thrushes sing from every branch;
clouds snag like lamb's wool on blue Mount Kearsarge. Down by Eagle Pond, just
west of us, pickerel leap for blackflies and when they splat on the still water
wake frogs and turtles. It is a good hour for waking; we keep the green
universe alone. But late September is the most beautiful time, and early at the
road. Sugar maples flare a Chinese red; they combine with tweed on hills in the
middle distance. I grant that winter causes pain -- in cold January sometimes I
lie abed until six -- but even winter is gorgeous; when the moon is high, I
wake at midnight and wantder through the farmhouse in gray, spooky light that
illuminates every corner, the ceilings luminous with reflections from snowy
hayfields.
Saturday, March 3, 2018
Thinking of New Hampshire
I watched On Golden Pond last weekend with a friend. The views
of central New Hampshire paired with the music brought back such extreme
nostalgia for that region that I found myself struggling not to cry as the film began!
I’ve been happy in coastal California and love the natural
beauty of the nearby rocky coast, ocean cliffs, eucalyptus, and redwood
trees, but watching On Golden Pond and being reminded of the natural beauty of
where I’m from brought me back to how much I love New Hampshire and how much I
miss the landscape there.
NH in winter and summer
A few days later, I drove past a gas station near my home where I noticed a man putting gas into his Jaguar. Next to him, a homeless man was sitting on the curb. Immediately, I thought “this is California. I see equal amounts of
luxury cars and homeless people all the time.” The film reminded me of the natural and understated beauty I miss, and the scene at the gas station reminded me of the unfortunate extremes in wealth and livelihood here.
I often find myself longing for more affordability, a quieter area in nature, and less people. I love the beauty and community here, but look
forward to the thought of potentially being somewhere quieter, among subtle and
unspoiled and less-discovered beauty someday.
The Monterey peninsula
Friday, December 22, 2017
Moon & Stars
The moon and stars have been distracting lately. I think of
the constellations seen from Monterey, the moon in California, and the stars in
New Hampshire on a clear night this week. Seen when walking at night or
stepping out of a car, or turning off a light before falling asleep. Admiring
them, I think of how fast time moves, how infinite space is, of creating a life
that is true and happy.
The urge to write has arrived less this year than last year, or the year before that. This saddens me, but I know if I push myself to write, it could (and likely would) return. There feels like less to share as I acclimate to life and work in California. I miss the east coast and New Hampshire at times, thinking of the people and traditions and community I know better than any other. Yet I continue to be awed by California’s mountains, wildlife, coast, trees, nature, and culture.
Earlier
this month. Morning in Cambria, CA.
Late November. Soledad, CA.
As I clean and categorize old photos during these days off,
I’ve found myself seeing the many images captured during the two years I spent
in New Hampshire before moving to California. They show each distinct season in
the small towns I lived in and moved through. The memories remind me of how predictable
and comforting that time could be. I’m not sure what the distant future holds.
For now, I see opportunity and a life in California, but am grateful for visits
to the east, to home. Seeing the snow fall outside today brings me back to the
winters I remember, even if the evening clouds mask moon and stars.
Thanksgiving Day. Pacific Grove, CA.
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